Being Out There

Marta Begonja
3 min readOct 11, 2016

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You don’t need to be superhuman to be out there. You don’t need to be superhuman to be a strong, independent person. You don’t. You can still fall in somebody’s lap. You can still cuddle and ask Do you love me? And hug, lots and lots of time. Only when you’ve got enough hugs can you be confident again. Sometimes it’s just healing time. And that’s ok. And how long that healing time is going to last depends on how willing you are to open your heart and start accepting what is and receiving what you need. The emotion behind these abstract concepts has been achieved before in your life. The feeling of heart break and fail, the feeling of joy and excitement, the feeling of pure sadness and grief. It doesn’t mean they are not coming again, you are just going to look at them with new eyes and new knowing. That’s how you live fully. You go into the emotion, feel it and let it go, and as the cycle continues it’s always a new experience. I think people feel boredom, when they forget. Forget what it’s like. To smell the fresh air. To buy fresh flowers. To make a cake. To meet your old buddies again. To travel to new places and see something your eyes have not experienced before. Or the joy of the routine, of drinking coffee in the same little coffee place each morning, the waiter asking you: The usual?, you nodding aha, because you feel excited about the next adventure you are going to embark upon. A new day in your ever so exciting life path. The feeling of a rush when you know you are following your heart’s trail no matter what and it feels so good no matter what other people are saying. No matter what. New things you could learn, exciting places to see, incredible people to encounter. The world offers immense opportunities to those who actively seek what life has to offer. How does that feel? Would you like to feel that? How about a dance? Let’s all dance together!

My wish is just to express who I am without any hidden agenda. I can only express and be who I am without thinking about what I’m gaining. I doesn’t work that way. You just are and just express whatever that means for u. What does it mean for you to be present in your life? You know that already. There is no one in this world who can say that for you. Just be you. I need you to be you. I need you to be on the exact vibration that is currently in your alignment so we can both move past that. We can’t move on otherwise. I need you to either criticize or love me depending on your current state of truth. I can guarantee you: the moment you let yourself feel it without altering you will be able to let go and move on. It is the cleaning. From my human side, in this reality, I will do what I need to protect myself but I need your reaction in a sincere way. It is your catharsis and it is mine. Co-creating and letting go. The sooner people accept what they believe in, the sooner it all dissolves and we all become free. No need any more to agree, to love or to hate. Wherever you are and whoever you are, I see YOU. I know your pain and I know your joy. And the moment you feel alive, you set me free as well.

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Marta Begonja
Marta Begonja

Written by Marta Begonja

Writing about life and all of my internal struggles…while constantly trying to develop and make the best of the experience. Personal development junkie.

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